Confession Of The Heart

Confession Of The Heart

Written by Philessa Hooks aka

Lady PJ

Revised 8/22/2014

Copyright 2005

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I hope that, in me, you see a heart that beats for you; your true admirer.  You are my sun; the light that consumes the darkest days.  My love shall never end nor fade for I am committed to you this day and forever.  I surrender now to you my sun.

I try but fail in your presence to express the depth of my emotion for fear that you’ll turn away from me.  I then turn into a paraplegic standing in your mist motionless and overcome by a desire to express but in the end I’m left with moments forever lost. 

I pray now that you see the desire that beams from my eyes and feel my love with every touch we share together. …Then my love will you know without hesitation that I am yours completely and forever!

I give you now this smile, my simple gift, to express my rejoicing for this moment that we now share.  It may be of little significance to you but to me it means so much more, its life sustaining. 

I leave you now with the knowledge that my joy cannot be defined in a single poem or a song, it can only be expressed and felt with every emotion that lives inside of me.  I’ve now given that from my heart to you.

We're through!

We’re through!

Written by Philessa Hooks Jenkins

Aka Lady PJ

Copyright 2014

All Rights Reserved

Tuesday, June 03, 2014

We’re through!

My dismay shows on my face

Like brightly colored rainbows

And neon signs

Because my mind is energized to define

Things in real-time with my mind’s eye

I don’t sugar coat the obvious

I take a note of what bothers me

Write it down and see it through

Like a forensic scientist

So I don’t state what’s wrong

All those crappy things you’ve done

But the face!  It’s not expressing love to you

It’s like a sign saying, “Hell yeah we’re through!”

Didn’t know you needed it posted on Facebook

Or tweeted on twitter, you social whore

I feel yeah

But just in case you didn’t catch my dismay

We’re done, today, tomorrow, and any other day.

My Surroundings

My Surroundings

Written by Philessa Hooks Jenkins

Aka Lady PJ

Monday, June 16, 2014

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Copyright June 9, 2014

“Enjoy your surrounding in all serenity”

                   Lady PJ

In this moment there is peace

As the wind forcefully comes

Mesmerized by the waves

Here awaiting the beaming sun

Clouds abound, sensing rain

Even the birds are alarm

Children surprised and amazed

As the gator swims along

One child points her finger

The other jumps around

The birds are on the hunt

The gator’s gone aground

The clouds they tell a story

The day is all but gone

The waves are in a hurry

To hit the shore, what a sound

I sit here in amazement

At all that I can see

This day I took a journey

You took this walk with me

I wish to tell an ending

No ending I can see

Life’s beautiful moments captured

One gift to you from me

The day sucks!

This day sucks…

Written by Philessa Hooks Jenkins

Aka Lady PJ

May 29, 2014

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Copyright 2014

I cried today

Somehow lost my way

Got no words to say

So I fought it
And turned away

Wiped away my tears

Longing to fight 

But lost all the will

Ditched that spear gun
Something inside me
Screamed run!

I sowed up those holes

Caught the blood
Drip... dripping

From my soul

Got deep in the rut

Too damn stubborn to give up

So I’m still here…

Now what?

Had a conversation with God

Thought that maybe he’d heard

Send me a message or a word

But all I'm seeing are birds

Maybe a whisper or a chirp?

Disillusioned, I gave up

Sounding crazy but

I’m emotionally cut
Now What?

The Bird Sings

The Bird Sings

Written by Philessa Hooks Jenkins

Aka Lady PJ

Tuesday, May 20, 2014

The bird sings a joyous song

Yet, my heart shatters on

The sun continues to shine

The day is all but gone

I can see the glory

Contained in brightly colored wings

I know that its symbol is freedom

Still the little bird sings

I hear not the song

I know that it’s contained

Feel only its life flowing

Like blood through my veins

I think that I should smile

To let my colors show

I think the world would hear me

If I sing it from my soul

The bird sings a joyous song

Yet, my heart shatters on

The sun continues to shine

The day is all but gone

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Knowledge by Lady PJ

Knowledge
Written by Philessa Hooks Jenkins
aka Lady PJ
April 26, 2014


There's an aching in my soul

Yet, I can't find the key

There's a hole in my heart

You just don't fill for me

This world keeps turning

And I can hardly breath

I imagine myself standing

But am I on my feet?

I walk around in a circular motion

I've covered much ground

Found many things lost

Left many things broken

I see myself

Now I'm wide open...

I know not to where the wind flows

I know not to where the hurt goes

I only know the things I know

What was our worth?

What was our worth?

Written by Philessa Hooks Jenkins

Aka Lady PJ

April 14, 2014 12:32 am

Enraged she held her hands back

With a guine display of dismay on his face

He tried but failed to turn away

Instead... he heard this loud slap

Yet, he stood there unfazed

And thinking to himself

...Am I having a bad dream?

Did this girl just put hands on me?

How can this hurt feel so real?

She wonders will this guilt disappear

Will his love ever be sincere
Was she the fool to even go there?

She longs to make the pain stop

She screams to get the “F” out!

No stop! Pause then this loud shout!

“I need my keys,” With her hands held out

He turns, laughing with his pride in tack

Threw her keys on the floor

Grabbed the small bag he packed

He chose not to look back

She felt so small and yet so tall; conflicted
She watched as he walked out

Her feet now glued to the floor

But somehow she fell down

The time she heard the door as it closed

She struggles to get up

Inside she just hurts

How could he just give up?

What was our worth?

The Wind Keeps Blowing by Lady PJ

The Wind keeps blowing

Written by Philessa Hooks Jenkins

Aka Lady PJ

All Rights Reserved

March 29, 2014

The wind keeps blowing

See how it’s blowing

It flows through every tree

I keep waiting

O’ how I’m waiting

For the wind to blow down on me

I keep hearing that love don’t hurt

It’s a lie!  That pain resides in the deepest

Corner of your mind

If I thought about it

I’d be lying to self

When I…

Tried to walk away

But my heart refused to go

I thought I could release you

From the deepest corners of my soul

But I’m confined

Trapped in these dreams of mine

Now they got me high

But you let me down

The wind keeps blowing

See how it’s blowing

It flows through every tree

I keep waiting

O’ how I’m waiting

For the wind to blow down on me

I was always yours to have

You was always mine

We’ve loved each other

In and out

In and out

In and out of time!

Maya Angelou

I drew a map

You couldn’t see

It was a roadway

That led to me

I laid my head down

At your feet

Said I submit

To loves defeat

Yet as I go now

By myself

I know a truth

If nothing else

I’ve done it all

There’s nothing left

The wind keeps blowing

See how it’s blowing

It flows through every tree

I keep waiting

O’ how I’m waiting

For the wind to blow down on me

Judgment by Lady PJ

Judgment by Philessa Hooks Jenkins

Aka Lady PJ

2/2/6/2014

"Stand tall and be proud of who you are"

                    Lady PJ

Why you judging me?

With that look of disapproval  

And this out and out display
Of dismay illuminating your face

With your eyes looking down at me

Like your way up there on that apple tree

Pretending to be perfect and all so Godly

I’m not the looser that you think

You’re flying high and talking fast

Yet you complain because I’m too slow

Or my thoughts are like the different

Colors of the rainbow

I’m not the rabbit trying to win the race

I’m that turtle trying to take my place

And become something more than

You or I ever thought I could be

Just wait… because my name will

Go down in history

WHAT THEN WILL YOU SAY TO ME?

To You My Love by Philessa Hooks Jenkins