The day sucks!

This day sucks…

Written by Philessa Hooks Jenkins

Aka Lady PJ

May 29, 2014

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I cried today

Somehow lost my way

Got no words to say

So I fought it
And turned away

Wiped away my tears

Longing to fight 

But lost all the will

Ditched that spear gun
Something inside me
Screamed run!

I sowed up those holes

Caught the blood
Drip... dripping

From my soul

Got deep in the rut

Too damn stubborn to give up

So I’m still here…

Now what?

Had a conversation with God

Thought that maybe he’d heard

Send me a message or a word

But all I'm seeing are birds

Maybe a whisper or a chirp?

Disillusioned, I gave up

Sounding crazy but

I’m emotionally cut
Now What?

The Bird Sings

The Bird Sings

Written by Philessa Hooks Jenkins

Aka Lady PJ

Tuesday, May 20, 2014

The bird sings a joyous song

Yet, my heart shatters on

The sun continues to shine

The day is all but gone

I can see the glory

Contained in brightly colored wings

I know that its symbol is freedom

Still the little bird sings

I hear not the song

I know that it’s contained

Feel only its life flowing

Like blood through my veins

I think that I should smile

To let my colors show

I think the world would hear me

If I sing it from my soul

The bird sings a joyous song

Yet, my heart shatters on

The sun continues to shine

The day is all but gone

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Knowledge by Lady PJ

Knowledge
Written by Philessa Hooks Jenkins
aka Lady PJ
April 26, 2014


There's an aching in my soul

Yet, I can't find the key

There's a hole in my heart

You just don't fill for me

This world keeps turning

And I can hardly breath

I imagine myself standing

But am I on my feet?

I walk around in a circular motion

I've covered much ground

Found many things lost

Left many things broken

I see myself

Now I'm wide open...

I know not to where the wind flows

I know not to where the hurt goes

I only know the things I know

What was our worth?

What was our worth?

Written by Philessa Hooks Jenkins

Aka Lady PJ

April 14, 2014 12:32 am

Enraged she held her hands back

With a guine display of dismay on his face

He tried but failed to turn away

Instead... he heard this loud slap

Yet, he stood there unfazed

And thinking to himself

...Am I having a bad dream?

Did this girl just put hands on me?

How can this hurt feel so real?

She wonders will this guilt disappear

Will his love ever be sincere
Was she the fool to even go there?

She longs to make the pain stop

She screams to get the “F” out!

No stop! Pause then this loud shout!

“I need my keys,” With her hands held out

He turns, laughing with his pride in tack

Threw her keys on the floor

Grabbed the small bag he packed

He chose not to look back

She felt so small and yet so tall; conflicted
She watched as he walked out

Her feet now glued to the floor

But somehow she fell down

The time she heard the door as it closed

She struggles to get up

Inside she just hurts

How could he just give up?

What was our worth?

The Wind Keeps Blowing by Lady PJ

The Wind keeps blowing

Written by Philessa Hooks Jenkins

Aka Lady PJ

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March 29, 2014

The wind keeps blowing

See how it’s blowing

It flows through every tree

I keep waiting

O’ how I’m waiting

For the wind to blow down on me

I keep hearing that love don’t hurt

It’s a lie!  That pain resides in the deepest

Corner of your mind

If I thought about it

I’d be lying to self

When I…

Tried to walk away

But my heart refused to go

I thought I could release you

From the deepest corners of my soul

But I’m confined

Trapped in these dreams of mine

Now they got me high

But you let me down

The wind keeps blowing

See how it’s blowing

It flows through every tree

I keep waiting

O’ how I’m waiting

For the wind to blow down on me

I was always yours to have

You was always mine

We’ve loved each other

In and out

In and out

In and out of time!

Maya Angelou

I drew a map

You couldn’t see

It was a roadway

That led to me

I laid my head down

At your feet

Said I submit

To loves defeat

Yet as I go now

By myself

I know a truth

If nothing else

I’ve done it all

There’s nothing left

The wind keeps blowing

See how it’s blowing

It flows through every tree

I keep waiting

O’ how I’m waiting

For the wind to blow down on me

Judgment by Lady PJ

Judgment by Philessa Hooks Jenkins

Aka Lady PJ

2/2/6/2014

"Stand tall and be proud of who you are"

                    Lady PJ

Why you judging me?

With that look of disapproval  

And this out and out display
Of dismay illuminating your face

With your eyes looking down at me

Like your way up there on that apple tree

Pretending to be perfect and all so Godly

I’m not the looser that you think

You’re flying high and talking fast

Yet you complain because I’m too slow

Or my thoughts are like the different

Colors of the rainbow

I’m not the rabbit trying to win the race

I’m that turtle trying to take my place

And become something more than

You or I ever thought I could be

Just wait… because my name will

Go down in history

WHAT THEN WILL YOU SAY TO ME?

To You My Love by Philessa Hooks Jenkins

Come Dance with Me written by Lady PJ

“Come Dance with me”

Written by Philessa Hooks Jenkins

Aka Lady PJ

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If I told you that life was a game

Would you play with me?

It would be like twenty shades of gray

We don’t need fifty but I promise you

It will be interesting

Our life would be the chess board

Every move invigorating

I’ll dazzle your mind

You’ll find it fascinating

Come dance with me baby

Hold me close to you

Our bodies touching

The connection is like fire… erupting

Don’t you want to play with me?

A lifetime of happiness

Is what I’m offering

This game of life is an opening

Come... come dance with me

"She Stood A Soldier"

Written by Philessa Hooks Jenkins
aka Lady PJ
September 1, 2005
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"She Stood A Soldier"

Children weeping; don't you cry!
No bed-time stories told tonight
Dreams are broken; hopes that die
Feeling empty deep inside

Who then will tell her story
While She's laying dead?
Who now will show the world
The precious life she lead?

In her mothers arms she was cradled
Her father held her close and tight
She then was taught to be a soldier
She held a gun; ready to fight

She served a world that didn't know her
Proud of the life she led
But all that's left is to grieve her
And understand that now she's dead

Out in the field she stood a soldier
Ready to serve and fight our cause
She proudly gave her life that day
I hope it never fades away
This gift that can never be replaced
So don't you dare forget her!

-Out In the Field She Stood A Soldier!-


     I wrote this piece because of the wars that our country was in; at the time I was thinking about all the female soldiers that weren't getting the respect that I felt they were due.  Because of what I was feeling this poem has special meaning to me. 

To You My Love by Lady PJ

I wonder do you know this love I feel gives me hope

Your smile I adore because that's how you touched me first

I think now can you see me or the woman that I will be

If I had you in my life to adore and love me completely

I long to be the shoulder for which you will lean on

To be the voice of hope whenever you're down or feel alone

To see your smile because it brightens up your eyes

To share with you the morning sun as it rises in the skies

I long to wake in the morning laying in your arms

To hear your heartbeat knowing that I am at home

To know that our love will stand the test of time

A crazy love story that the whole world will admire

Copyright 2013 Philessa Jenkins

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